I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME FOR THIS!
The title of this blog is seriously the theme of my life this semester. i don't have time to be writing in this blog right now infact! but here i am.....and i continue to type. i really have felt the necessity to post lately for some reason. i just can't believe lately how good God is.
God had answered so many prayers lately. every day, another answer. i'm beginning to really understand the power of prayer and trusting that god will come through.
i dont have time this year. i honestly don't. i pray almost every day as the day starts that he gives me grace: grace for my lack of preparation for each day, trusting that he will provide for my school/class needs and get me through them. and he does! every time! also, i pray for joy. i get angry (its a flaw) when i don't have my homework done or i don't feel prepared. that can put me in a horrible mood. and fast! he has been giving me this weird unearthly joy lately...one that even my classmates have noticed and commented on. wow. i have tried for so many years to provide my own energy that was "from god" but i have never actually fully trusted in god for his joy. this goes for one of my wonderful roomates to. she encouraged me in this. she asked god for joy and she has been uncontrollably laughing lately...to the point which makes me uncomfortable sometimes. ha! every day now feels like a blessing and not another dreaded day to drag through. its like...instead looking to be blessed by others, blessing comes from blessing others..which sounds elementary but when it actually happens to you and you experience it, it is mindblowing. if you recognize every day that jesus d.i.e.d. for you, gosh, it will rock your world. and mind you, i do still have plenty of moments, but the joy of the lord and the love of my heavenly father far surpasses andy of the sins and regrets i have through my ther day.
one small blessing of the day: my computer and printer have been idiotic lately. today, i went in to the IT desk for help which was a frustrating 2 hours in which i forgot anything with which i could make myself useful......b.u.t. it got fixed. god fixed it. i know he did. later i gound out that my mom and dad had prayed for the same things last night. wow.
another: i was kinda worried about money today...i checked my newly fixed computer on the email program that worked...gasp :O and my text book on Amazon sold! thank you jesus!
another: and all of this in one day. I come home frantic at 12pm because i have so much to do, needing to leave for class in 30minutes and Anika asked if she can make lunch for me. Just what i needed. i had been going since 8 and hadnt had breakfast.
I had a friend on my heart who i sense is going through spirirtual warfare right now, and a couple of my friends had been praying for her with me. the next day, she calls me and tells me she wants to go to Christian Challenge Fall Conference this weekend. She is going to be I.M.M.E.R.S.E.D. in god this weekend. how awesome!
i have been praying for my best friend in NE......and she called me last night! we talked for an hour and i was able to shower love on her.
god teaches new things to you every day if you let him. i love the way he does it. he takes all your prideful presuppositions about anyone and everything and breaks them right in front of your face. its quite comical sometimes. i have found that i am a very judgemental person (she who thought she wasnt judgemental....) and he is slowly but surely breaking me of this. I pray that god spares my judgement and gives me grace on Judgement day.
i am thankful for every new and old person god has put in my life this year.
hope this was an encouragement, and not just words.
Where would i be, what would i have done, if it wasnt for Jesus.
Praise Jesus!
Favorite song right now:
God had answered so many prayers lately. every day, another answer. i'm beginning to really understand the power of prayer and trusting that god will come through.
i dont have time this year. i honestly don't. i pray almost every day as the day starts that he gives me grace: grace for my lack of preparation for each day, trusting that he will provide for my school/class needs and get me through them. and he does! every time! also, i pray for joy. i get angry (its a flaw) when i don't have my homework done or i don't feel prepared. that can put me in a horrible mood. and fast! he has been giving me this weird unearthly joy lately...one that even my classmates have noticed and commented on. wow. i have tried for so many years to provide my own energy that was "from god" but i have never actually fully trusted in god for his joy. this goes for one of my wonderful roomates to. she encouraged me in this. she asked god for joy and she has been uncontrollably laughing lately...to the point which makes me uncomfortable sometimes. ha! every day now feels like a blessing and not another dreaded day to drag through. its like...instead looking to be blessed by others, blessing comes from blessing others..which sounds elementary but when it actually happens to you and you experience it, it is mindblowing. if you recognize every day that jesus d.i.e.d. for you, gosh, it will rock your world. and mind you, i do still have plenty of moments, but the joy of the lord and the love of my heavenly father far surpasses andy of the sins and regrets i have through my ther day.
one small blessing of the day: my computer and printer have been idiotic lately. today, i went in to the IT desk for help which was a frustrating 2 hours in which i forgot anything with which i could make myself useful......b.u.t. it got fixed. god fixed it. i know he did. later i gound out that my mom and dad had prayed for the same things last night. wow.
another: i was kinda worried about money today...i checked my newly fixed computer on the email program that worked...gasp :O and my text book on Amazon sold! thank you jesus!
another: and all of this in one day. I come home frantic at 12pm because i have so much to do, needing to leave for class in 30minutes and Anika asked if she can make lunch for me. Just what i needed. i had been going since 8 and hadnt had breakfast.
I had a friend on my heart who i sense is going through spirirtual warfare right now, and a couple of my friends had been praying for her with me. the next day, she calls me and tells me she wants to go to Christian Challenge Fall Conference this weekend. She is going to be I.M.M.E.R.S.E.D. in god this weekend. how awesome!
i have been praying for my best friend in NE......and she called me last night! we talked for an hour and i was able to shower love on her.
god teaches new things to you every day if you let him. i love the way he does it. he takes all your prideful presuppositions about anyone and everything and breaks them right in front of your face. its quite comical sometimes. i have found that i am a very judgemental person (she who thought she wasnt judgemental....) and he is slowly but surely breaking me of this. I pray that god spares my judgement and gives me grace on Judgement day.
i am thankful for every new and old person god has put in my life this year.
hope this was an encouragement, and not just words.
Where would i be, what would i have done, if it wasnt for Jesus.
Praise Jesus!
Favorite song right now:
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